Is it time for a reboot?

This is something I have done for many years:

Wake up, meditate, write, take-care-of-kids-conquor-my-goals-tick-off-my-to-do-list-do-alot-of things-cook-dinner-push-through-exhaustion-meditate-pass-out-cold-goodnight.

The beginning of the day starts off sweet and slow and intentional and then somehow it becomes like a runaway train of striving, doing, achieving and/or just getting stuff done.

It took the pandemic to make me super aware of this pattern. It took the last year to really see why it wasn’t working anymore.

My initial clue was the feeling of pressure. The feeling of pressure was free floating and would attach to all sorts of things. Pressure to be a present mom. Pressure to take great care of myself. Pressure to cook healthy meals for my family. Pressure to be a visible and impactful teacher. Pressure to build a new business. Pressure to contribute financially to my family. Pressure to be of service to this world. Pressure to be my best.

The pressure was like a vice that just kept getting tighter no matter what I would “do” to release it. In fact, the things I “did” to make it easier actually made it worse.

All this action I found myself in all day seemed to disconnect me from my Sacred Self. 

And that made it all harder. 

So I paused. 

Or rather, I paused as much as I was able. I am a mom of three kids after all.

In that pause, I examined what was going on within me (where my mind was at) and what was happening around me (how I created the architecture of my day). 

Where was my mind?  In a perfection-striving, pressure-infused space.  

Ooops. 

What was my day like?  Full, busy and stressful.

Ooops again. 

REBOOT.

We get to reboot our lives. Did you know that?  We get to pause and reflect and ask…

• What do I need and want?

• How do I want to feel?

• How do I wish to experience my days?

• How do I wish to project myself in the world?

• How do I want the people I love to experience me?

And we get to align our life with the answers to those questions.

When I allowed myself this reboot. Something within me clicked in a way it had never before.

For me, resting is the key. Not just resting; conscious resting. Resting while giving myself time for self check in, self inquiry and self listening.

Resting with my breath. Resting with my body. Resting in the moment.

And this rest became a portal to my Sacred Self.

Pausing in the center of my day - around noon, has become a vital practice for me to feel peaceful and purposeful at the same time. 

When I am aligned with my Sacred Self, there is no urgency, there is plenty of time for all of it, what is in front of me is the priority and this experience makes me feel like all is well and will be well..

When I am out of alignment with my Sacred Self; pressure is the ruling energy and nothing is enough; including me.

I’m done with being out of alignment. 

Are you?